I thought I'd write about an experience that I had with C over a month ago. It was just a small little thing, but it's something that I still think of from time to time, so I thought I'd share it with you.
I'd been up late working at the coffee shop. I still had a little more to get done, but I wasn't planning on being out much later. C and I were texting back and forth occasionally. I sent him one as I was waiting in line, again, to get something to drink and said... "Can't decide if I should get more coffee."
His response was "No more coffee, baby. Have some water." And I bought a bottle of water. As I was sitting down in front of my laptop I realized I'd just let him make a decision that I normally wouldn't let anyone make for me. Now, I know it's not a big deal, really... it's just a beverage, right? But, really, our D/s relationship has always been strictly sexual. He doesn't control any other aspects of my life. I may go to him for advice on things from time to time, but he doesn't tell me what to do with my life.
And I'm not saying that he was trying to do that here, to take more control than I wanted him to. It was just weird to realize that I followed his command without even thinking about it. It didn't offend or annoy me as it would have if anyone else had said the same thing.
Not sure what to make of all that, or if it really means anything at all. Just something that's been floating around in my head. *shrugs*
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I love it when you realise you've just automatically submitted without thinking about it - it really heightens the sense of control for me.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's nice to see that C is caring for you in more than just a sexual way with this little command - it's thoughtful.
Jx
I think the question here is... did you enjoy submitting to him in this relatively simple command? I think its wonderful when submission flows that naturally, when its like breathing and its only afterward that you realize it had nothing to do with sex and everything to do with the way things are supposed to be...
ReplyDeleteNot to get all vanilla and not so D/s on you guys, but where I come from, that sort of thing is called trust. :) Maybe even a bit of respect. <3
ReplyDeleteLove this post! I remember feeling so stubbornly intent on NOT submitting to Master anywhere but in the bedroom. And how gooood it feels when I let go of that and just let him be the man. And follow my natural feminine way. Happiness!
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